when no one's watching

[concretekiss]

something must've happened last night. i woke early & feeling serene like i'd had the sweetest dream (as opposed to the cop-rape one) but i can't remember what it was, so i put whipcream in my coffee & pretended to be a belly dancer in my room, to celebrate.

if you do not confess what you truly feel you in turn protect that which is most tender of you, yet disservice yourself by censorship, pretense, or facade. of course the theory is subjective to different situations, but it is rolling around in the back of my thoughts, slamming into the windows on sharp turns.

i've been ignoring alot of responsible things. i don't check my mail for days & when i do i put it in a stack with the other unopened stack. i don't save my receipts or check my bank balance. i am living on the edge, just like triple x.

but today we celebrate eeyore's birthday in the park where last year i met a silver man!

Comments

offering up the achilles heel

[flightviolation.livejournal.com]

sometimes i would rather lose a limb than to subject my softest sentiments to disdain or ridicule or worse, apathy. so i opt to make a martyr of myself.

oh good luck, prettyhead.

ooo rollins just came on my song shuffle. raaawr

Re: offering up the achilles heel

[mehinda.livejournal.com]

Rollins and I share a birthday. I like to think that if we met in person we'd have instant sympatico.

I waiver between letting loose the torrent of feelings and dreading the inevitable sorrow and pity that seems to follow, from me and from the person on whom I've just opened those floodgates.

Where's my Xanax? Where's my Vallium? Why on earth do I live in the age of psychotropics if I'm not on any of them? ;-)

Re: offering up the achilles heel

[flightviolation.livejournal.com]

i at times think he's hot even though his poetry is jacked!

i wish i could tell you a good thing to do about that, but i'm SO the wraaawng gal to talk to. there've been plenty who i've left oblivious to what i felt. i'm like a fuggin' monk.

Re: offering up the achilles heel

[mehinda.livejournal.com]

At the risk of sounding all Veronica from Heathers, I should probably just let this shake out & see if this guy is worth my fucking speech deepest feelings.

sho hard to handle

[flightviolation.livejournal.com]

smart cookie, you. i think yr right.

love,
corn nuts

Re: sho hard to handle

[mehinda.livejournal.com]

Bar-B-Q!